Today I wanted to share with you all my journey over the past 6 months, and how God has truly blessed me with so many amazing things that I didn’t think very much of, until I was reflecting on life late one night, and I was truly amazed by how many things have happened to me recently.
Roughly 6 months ago, I decided to break things off with my (now ex) boyfriend. This is in no way directed towards him, this post is for me, but this is the situation that kind of felt like the start of a downward spiral. I had dated this guy on and off for a year, through his first year of college. multiple birthdays and through both of our graduations. Again, this is not an in depth explanation of my love life, however, I came to a point in my life where I wanted to get baptized, serve God, follow my dreams, and at this point in time, I felt like I was being held back by this relationship.
I decided to break things off, I was obviously still attached, even though I had been the one to brake it off, I was still heart broken, I will not lie, I cried A LOT, and I mean more than after watching ‘The Notebook’ a lot. I was in a place where I was sad, but I knew that this relationship was doing more harm than good, and in all honesty, I needed someone who supported me and my dreams, but still had their own aspirations in life. This was one of the most difficult things I have had to do in my life.
The next week, I got baptized.
The next month, I reached 20,000 followers on Instagram, then I had a two year anniversary of my Instagram.
And then, I left for college. I came to East Carolina University, said goodbye to a lot of people, lost some friends, gained some more. I then rushed at ECU and found my Xisters of Alpha Xi Delta.
And later, I found out that I would be working with PINK as a stylist.
My dad proposed to my (now) step mom and I have 3 new step siblings.
I became a vegetarian.
I became more motivated.
I bought my own website.
And I made it through my first semester in college.
Honestly I look back at these months and I did not even see what God was doing with my life. I felt like my life was falling apart, when in fact God had all the pieces in his hands, and was putting them in place for me all along.
I have had a lot of troubles the past 6 months, from my past relationship, to losing friends and TONS of roommate conflict, but here I am, 6 months after my world felt like it was falling apart, and I can honestly say that I am happy. My life is still not perfect like some of you may think, I have overcome lots of obstacles and there will still be many more in the future. At the end of the day, God has my back, and he has yours too. And if you are going through anything, just know that YOU ARE LOVED and that THINGS WILL GET BETTER.
“A negative mind will never give you a positive life.”
XX, Delaney Hogg